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[20 Sep 2009|11:46pm] |
Life's been..hectic. Two jobs. Not enough hours/wage to pay for insurance..or barely. Had my birthday, was not exciting at all but..you'll have that.
Today was kinda sad..I went to the garage to get the cat and Harley's collar was on the bench..I hadn't seen it since before he died. When I held it up mom handed me his tags and said I could keep them..they're on my keys ♥
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[28 Jul 2009|10:54pm] |
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The past two hours have been so emotional, it's ridiculous. I worked this morning at the doctor's office from 10-2, blew an hour, then came down here and worked hung out at the movie store for an hour before working 4-close. I got home right around 9:30 and my brother and his girlfriend were out on the porch attached to the garage talkin to dad so I went up and said hi..and it began. Dad's like come with me.
I was fine. I didn't cry at all today. I was FINE. He takes me up to this little hill behind Harley's box. We called it Pride Rock because he'd run and stand up on it like he was the damn king of everything. Well, they leveled a patch off, dug it out, and buried him in his hill. And I nearly lost my mind because on top of his grave was this little cross with his name on it, a pot of flowers, and in the flowers my dad put one of those lanterns that only comes on at night. He looked at me, "I put the light there so he'd never be in the dark."
I had a conniption. I barely made it to the house before I started fucking bawling..it was horrible. I guess the past three nights mom's come home and he's been on the back porch either petting one of the dogs or just staring up the hill, crying. This is rough. Just thinking about that little lantern up on the hill is making me cry.
Mom called the humane society and i guess they need her statement..so she went and got neighbor's statements, too..cause seriously, my Harbee wouldn't know mean if it bit him on the ass. The lady who took care of him those 2 weeks he was missing got sick when mom told her about it..She gave her the picture she had of Harleybear in her visor, cause this lady and her husband fucking adored him. God I'm so damn depressed.
I want my Harbee boo-boo back. Oh yeah..I had so many gay nicknames for him. But now he's just my little angel.
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[28 Jul 2009|08:51am] |
So I came to the boyfriend's the day after that mother fucker killed my baby..and I haven't been home since (working at the doctor's office). I'm not sure how going home is going to be. I'm goin to go straight from work up here today to work at the movie store so I don't get all emotional when I get home. The only good news is, they brought my little angel home yesterday and buried him.
( Harley-bear )
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[25 Jul 2009|11:48pm] |
I'm sure I won't make it through this entry without losing my mind again.
Harley Houdini got loose again today. No biggie. I got home from work, he was running up and down the road on the shoulder. He's harmless. He'll come back. I come in the house, I change, go to town and get gas, and when I come back, my dad's truck is parked across the driveway..so I angle in, get out, head up the stairs. I'm not to the front porch when my mom and dad walk out the front door, my mom is hysterical.
Some mother fucker shot my dog. If I EVER meet this goddamn person, I swear to god, I think I'll gut him.
He shot Harley and I guess he laid down in our neighbor's driveway..so he ran up and got my dad, they loaded him into dad's truck..then the neighbor took off, got his own truck and, bless him, lined his covered pick-up with foam and afghans, got compresses, and came back for Harley. He took my dog and parents to the animal hospital.
They sent mom, dad, and the neighbor home cause they were going to do surgery, and it took probably 2 hours before we got a phone call.
I guess they got there and they sedated him and did some x-rays..he went into cardiac arrest on the table, and even though they were able to bring him back, he died from blood loss.
Mom and dad went down the road to the house of the guy who did it. He wasn't there. But when Jay was coming back up the road, he said he passed a van. The guy who drives it is the one who shot Harley. Dad basically went postal on that man. I'm sure if assault wasn't a crime, that man would be eating through a straw.
The cops are coming tomorrow. I guess we're going to press charges somehow. If for nothing else, than at least for the veterinary charges. Our neighbor is pressing charges because he discharged a fire arm within 150 feet/yards, whatever, of over 3 houses. Illegal much.
I don't think I've ever hated someone so much in my life. He killed my baby..
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[24 Jul 2009|12:44am] |
I GOT THE JOB!! I got the fuckin' job. I'm so damn excited. It's only part time, but it's experience damnit! and I GET TO WEAR SCRUBS. Oh yes.
On a completely irrelevant note, I'm sad face because I checked cute boy's myspace, and his update is this: For just once in my life why cant someone just give me a chance. I'd do absolutly anything for her :(
I doubt it's about me, but I can't help but wonder. Regardless, it makes me want to hug him.
It's only 5 months til Christmas. I need to start preparing (I'm not kidding).
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[23 Jun 2009|08:22pm] |
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I have an interview tomorrow! How exciting. I'm dead tired from cleaning the pool today, and I just spent about 2 hours scouring our lame mall for a decent dress shirt for tomorrow. In my hunt though, I stopped to visit bambi and fye has this used sale, buy 3 get the 4th free..well i got 2 busta cd's for jer, transformers [I LOVE THIS MOVIE! I only saw it for the first time like a week ago] and as i'm goin thru these bins, I find this asian movie that I used to watch nonstop..and I almost squealed, i was so excited. It's called Gen-X Cops..and I'm just excited thinkin about it. Oh well..Jer's home. Hopefully he'll want to go do somethin fun!
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[10 Jun 2009|11:29pm] |
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I can't wait til Jen gets back from her vacation so I can get a job with my degree and get out of this asylum I used to call home.
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[23 May 2009|02:01am] |
The past few days have been different. I haven't talked to Jer really since the weekend because I was so mad at him for basically blowing me off. I take time off every week to see him and he never wants to do anything but sleep..it upsets me that I do this for him every week and that's how he treats it. But anyways..as you read from the last post, cuteness has been coming to see me nearly any time we both work and..I've enjoyed it but in that eye candy kind of way. I mean..why would I leave my Jer-bear for a kid who just wants to get laid? That's stupid. Well he came to visit me today and he hung out for like twenty minutes talking to me before he went to work.
I hung out at work after I clocked out and around 6 one of the new girls strolls in and she's like "That kid you talk to, he works over at the other building right?" and I say yes..why. She's like "Well..I went to buy cigarettes and I got a receipt. I never get a receipt. And I look at it, it's his phone number." Cue me laughing my ass off and Jen getting the MOST offended look on her face. So we stewed for a few minutes, trying to think of what to say, and gave up. So it died down at work and after like 2 hours, I text him, and god I'm mean..but here's the conversation.
Backstory: I LOVE playgrounds. I love swings. But no one will go play with me at them so the other night M [the new girl] and I met up at like..11:30 at night and went to the playground til almost 2 am. Cuteness knew this, blah blah blah.
Here's our text convo.
K: Having fun [at work]?
C: not at all.
K: Aww hasn't M text you yet? That would make your night soo much better.
And during this entire thing I'm keeping it playful because he's hot as fuck, he's nice to look at, but I had no intentions of leaving my boy for him, fucking him, etc. Rude, but..he admitted he wanted to "rock my world" so I can't see a point in getting mad/offended when he hasn't bullshitted me about his..goal, I suppose.
C: No, why would she?
K: haha she's the cute one you gave your number to earlier. Trying to steal my playground date?
C: Idk, I didn't give anyone my number.
So I text M cause she thinks this is interesting..she's like "Is his number _____?" and it was his number. So he asks what she looks like, etc, i give a vague description, he's like no, i have no idea. I didn't give my number to anyone, that's so weird, blah blah blah.
So I'm like kay whatever. I just wanted to fuck with him, and the only reason it bugs me is cause he's a liar. It's like dude..just admit you're hitting on all these girls, I don't give a shit. We got 2 new girls in a week: M and Ri. Both smoke, so both go to his workplace to buy cigarettes, and he's hit on both mercilessly.
I've been chuckling about this all night..M thinks I'm mad at her and it's like dude..no way. I know 2 girls he's slept with already, that's pretty sad. And he's denied knowing the one and I even talked to her about him.
I'm glad I don't act out of anger/annoyance with Jer, cause this kid isn't worth my time, and the whole situation is funny as hell to me. Why lie about stupid shit? Silly little bitch.
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[19 May 2009|01:40am] |
Long f'ing day number two. I had jer wake me up before he left for work at 8 and I got down here at 9..and I had to work 11-3 which is dandy. Til I'm on my way to work and Jen texts me and tells me our DM is already there and he's just pissed as can be because that's what he does. He yells. So I drove around til literally like 2 minutes to my shift, I pull in, and Cuteness pulls in. That kid is not making my life easier. I had the worst weekend with Jer ever, and he's just like "Well..I came to see you before work." He's fucking gorgeous. That's all that comes to mind when I think of him, and I feel horrible but..blah.
But I had to run in and change and so I clocked in at 11 and I spent the next 4 hours running around until our DM is like call someone else in so you can get this done today. So we called Mar in and she helped and god that girl is good. But..we didn't clock out til..oh..10ish. Then I stayed til 12:30 or so just doing little things to help Jen cause pretty much..what doesn't get done tonight, I have to do myself tomorrow. Yay. Now I have to go to bed and wake up at f'ing 8 something to work 9:30-6:30 or even later, depending on our progress tomorrow. God I hope I don't have to stay late..
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[16 May 2009|02:45am] |
I am so sore. I worked today 9:30-5:30 and..well, my day was long.
I got a call Wednesday while I was at work around 5 and my boss tells me our DM and RM were coming the following day..so cue me freaking out, calling a helper in, and we ran our asses off til I let her go at 9:30..then I ended up staying til probably 10:45 before I headed home.
They came Thursday and left this crazy long list of stuff that needed done..of course E didn't do fucking anything. And he left me over 100 movies to put away, on top of his nothingness. So first thing in the morning, I'm flipping out, pissed cause I have to do what he didn't do and what I have to do on top of my daily tasks. So first thing first haha I call Bambi to bitch..I'm doing paperwork and C [the once psycho boy] comes in and does the hair ruffle. Cracked me up..I love people playing with my hair. And he stood there and f'in picked on me because I broke the printers AGAIN. Jerkface.
So he left and I attempted to do shit but..it was just me running around with no direction because people kept coming in, stores kept calling, DM kept calling, etc. Finally Jen came in and when I clocked out at 5:30, i kept helping her to move stuff where it went..then mom showed up at 6:30, we went grocery shopping..and I came back at 7:30..and I ended up helping her til 1 am, but we have all but one thing done so..go us. It looks absolutely amazing too, so we really rock.
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[30 Apr 2009|12:15am] |
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I'm pretty sure I'm dying. I've had a horrid stomach ache on and off for days..it keeps me from eating much of anything. I can find something that sounds awesome, have 2 bites and feel like I'll be sick. I don't get sick..but the feeling is enough to make me miserable. On top of that, I keep having anxiety..not fun. AND i have heat intolerance, which can trigger both the anxiety and the tummy aches. Suck.
Psycho boy is backing off, hallelujah. I miss my Jer like crazy..he didn't come down this weekend..I think we're spending the weekend together, then I have a Dr. appt on monday cause this shit has got to stop. I do not feel good.
Jer mentioned eloping the other night..he's so damn sweet. He went from wantin this big extravagant wedding [backwards, right?!] to like "we can elope..I know you don't want a wedding."
But he laid out this list of "guarantees" which made me laugh so hard..most of them are just how often he gets sex and criteria that needs to be met. He's like "I know you. If I marry you, it'll be like that movie where the girl was cackling about not having to do that anymore." God I laughed so hard. He really brightens my life.
I can't wait to see him..for some reason I just get all giddy at the thought of seeing him. And no, it's not because of the eloping thing. That kid's been proposing since day one, almost. I realize that sounds kinda psycho but..it was always in jest..sorta.
The good thing about this really shitty week is I got my hair chopped off..and for once I love it. So much that it's my new Facebook pic. Oh Yeah.
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[25 Apr 2009|11:56pm] |
Past week has sucked. The cute boy who has been texting me is quite possibly a slight psycho.
Not too thrilled about that. I wish he weren't, cause I kind of had a bit of a crush on him. He came in Friday morning right at open and visited for a few, then he left and kept texting me. He asked at one point if he'd have a shot if I were single, and i'm like whatev, i'll be honest, yes. Twenty minutes later he comes in dressed all..mm. He looked good earlier but jesus he looked fine. Thus making the fact that he's possibly psycho really sad =T
Oh well. I ♥ my boy. I can't wait to see him tomorrow
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[19 Apr 2009|03:29pm] |
The last like..three days have been out of control!! I love it.
( Helloooo?? )
Needless to say, I'm tired..but I'm uber bored right now..Blah. I have a job interview tomorrow so we'll see how that goes =]
PS to explain the lj-cut text, when I was at work, I was waiting on a guy and my phone went off. It was Cass..who talks in a cartman voice. Well I thought I hit end but I hit Send and it answered the phone..so I threw it under the counter, I walk over to pick something up for the guy, and I hear HELLOOOOO?! and I just about died..I'm like oh man..I'll call you back. Meanwhile my customer was just like..laughing. Thankfully.
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[13 Apr 2009|02:39am] |
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I really think something is wrong with me. I don't know if it's got to do with my doctor taking me off my thyroid pill, or what..but the past week it seems, I've been on a roller coaster. And the source? Jer.
( I don't understand.. )
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[12 Apr 2009|12:29pm] |
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I really love that I told mom last night I would make this, this, and this. I get up early and they already did it. So now, instead of being asleep [I am so fucking tired] I get to sit here with absolutely nothing to do for 2 hours because they did what I got up to do. Thanks guys.
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[04 Apr 2009|06:41pm] |
I look like a moo cow..but..i'm keeping this picture forever.
( ♥♥♥ )
Everyone keeps stopping what they're doing to go play with him..we all missed him so much =]
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[04 Apr 2009|04:35pm] |
I was driving home from work, doing what I always do..looking in yards for Harley. I found him. He's in the house three down from mine, tied to the back corner. I saw him laying in the side yard through some trees and I'm like no..and then I backed down the hill and went to their house because no one in this area has a dog that looks like him. Like everyone around here has mutts and none of them look remotely like a german sheppard like harley does..so I go there, no one's home. I was composed..I was going to say ya know, he's mine..if you want him, you can keep him..but I'd like him back if I can..cause apparently, according to the humane society, after 5 days at someone's house, a dog is theirs. Well they weren't home and i went around and petted him and he was so damn happy to see me. I almost started crying..Im crying as I type this, I'm so upset. I'm so afraid they won't let me have them back. I mean I knocked and stood there for like five minutes and..yeah. If someone was inside and heard me talking to him, it was so sad. I'm just like "Hey sweetie..are you happy here? Do you wanna stay?" and he was just so excited to see me..like he never barks and when he heard the car in the driveway he did his little whine he does..i almost cried right there. But no one's home.
my dad's pissed because if we get him back then christ forbid, he has to build another dog box. It's like get over your fucking self. You built 2 giant pens for jasons dogs..one little dog box isn't bad. I'm so afraid they won't let me have him..I want him back so bad..I told mom I would go with her but then she told me to get his collar and tags [he slipped them when he took off. and NO ONE REPORTED A FOUND DOG. I'M SO MAD ABOUT THAT!!!!!] and ask jason to grommet his tags on a new collar so it can't hapen again and i just started crying. Like i'm almost hyperventilating..so she and jay are going to get him because if i went and they say i can't have him back, i won't be able to handle it.
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[01 Apr 2009|07:21pm] |
Happy birthday Manda =]
( Ridiculous! )
On another note, the back of my hand is all broken out..so I think I have an allergy to Mac drool..just one more thing.
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[28 Mar 2009|11:31pm] |
I just finished watching Zathura and it was awesome. I believe I have finished watching the list of movies Kristen is in. At least I finished the ones that sounded interesting. I really enjoyed Zathura and In The Land of Women, but that guy..something Brody, he's funny. I may have to start a list of movies he's in.
I rented Never Back Down cause Cam Gigandet (I think I spelled that right..) is in it. He was absolutely insane, but it was a great movie also. Gorgeous eyes. All Imdb is showing for him is NBD, a bunch of OC episodes..nothing that strikes me as interesting. Except it says he's in that episode of CSI where they find the baby in a parked car in like...100+ degree weather. Needless to say I'm going to dig through my collection to see that.
I'm always looking for Jason Statham movies to watch because he's my other boyfriend..I rented Snatch, I sit down to watch it and..disc one is missing. Some fucker didn't notice when they checked it in..so now when I work monday I have to research it and call whomever to get it back. I was all excited to watch it too, I mean come on. Brad Pitt and Jason Statham? It can't be horrible.
Anyways, I decided to icon a bunch of oldie-but-goodies from my collection. Since Snatch isn't here to watch --. Currently playing: The Notebook. I first iconed this years ago and for that time, they turned out okay..but I"m better at graphics now so I'm gonna try again =] I'm just skipping through this though, cause this is like..the only chick flick that I owe. It makes me sad obv.
On the list to icon:
♥ Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends
♥The Office
♥Transporter 3
♥Cake Eaters (momma bought it for me!!♥♥♥)
Other than that I might do NCIS. I love McGee..
Recommend movies for me to see/icon! I can rent movies early..for example, Marley and Me comes out this tuesday [31st]..so I can rent it from Wednesday [25th] thru monday [30th]. I rented that and 7 pounds but didn't watch either..I've been on an older movie kick. At work, anything over a year old is in our "gallery" section, which I consider "older movie" so we're not talking Casablanca old, just..not new movies. So I'd love suggestions!!
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